In conversation with Michael Landsberg
By Corrine Dayman | Photo Dan Lim
Michael Landsberg is a self-professed “man on a mission” to change the way we perceive and respond to the millions of Canadians suffering from mental illness. Brash, witty, and real are the words that I would best describe this impenitent ambassador for Bell’s mental health awareness campaign, Let’s Talk.
As Michael and I deliberate on what it means to live with depression, I soon realize that Landsberg makes no apologies for his candid approach to this grossly misunderstood disease. It is no doubt that the public figure has earned his stripes with his decade-long struggle and discovery with the life-altering illness. He is using his voice and his celebrity to share his experiences, and offers up a no holds barred virtual stand; reaching out to fellow sufferers through his weekly video blog, and his new countrywide movement, #sicknotweak.
It may have been seventeen years since Landsberg’s pivotal moment in understanding his own feelings of deep despair, but he recalls all too well how his turning point toward his road to wellness was both profound and remarkable.
It was in the fall of 1997 when Michael felt suffocated by his inner demons and deep emotional despair, but it wouldn’t be until the following year that he would seek professional help. Like many sufferers, despite the loving support of his family, only he could take the first brave step.
As he describes it, Michael remembers thinking, “wow, you know, I’m not really myself. I’m not the person I was. The things that I enjoy, I’m not enjoying”.
It was this “awakening” over the next couple of days that would bring Michael to his first psychiatric appointment to begin his journey toward understanding that his dark feelings and fears had a name and that he could face this monster that was slowly consuming his life.
“At the time, depression doesn’t typically hit you like a baseball bat. It is just a little tap. And the little tap happens every hour, every day, over a period of time, and before you know it, this tap has turned into something more substantial.”
A self-proclaimed high achiever, Michael Landsberg appeared to have the world in his hands as the popular television host of the highly acclaimed TSN television sports talk show,
Off The Record. For 18 seasons the witty sharpshooter entertained audiences with his incredible interviews and his playful verbal sparring about nearly anything in the sports arena. It would have been difficult to believe that in 2008 this public figure was secretly waging the hardest battle of his life. Michael admits that he found ways to hide his depression and when the camera was rolling. He would turn himself on. When it was over he would find refuge alone in bed, under the blankets. >
Not convinced that sharing his battle publicly would be of interest to colleagues and friends, determined that his inner battle would be one that he would need to fight alone. It wasn’t until his fateful interview with two-time Stanley Cup champion, Stéphane Richer on October 15, 2009, that became the turning point to open up about his personal dialogue about depression.
The overwhelming response from that crucial dialogue changed Landsberg’s life and gave him a new purpose. The number of male fans who came forward, suffering from their own depression, surprised him. This changed Landsberg’s opinion about the value of sharing his experience publicly and started his conversation about mental illness with the masses. Sick Not Weak was born. It is an initiative to encourage a better understanding of mental health as physical illness, and not a representation of human weakness.
“When we use the term ‘mental illness’ we’ve made a mistake because that suggests somehow that it is not a physical illness to the brain.” Landsberg admits that he has been severely depressed and knows first hand that “it is possible to be alive without living.”
“I know that a day spent severely depressed is a day that is no better than death; the only difference is that you can come back from that.”
The initial concept and a built-in support system are quite simple. As explained by Landsberg, “the goal of #sicknotweak was to create a community and to be a place where people can go and know that we understand what they are going through.”
Altering the stigma of mental health is at the heart of the #sicknotweak campaign. The foundation, with its over 700 volunteers across Canada, reaches out to first responders, police, ambulance, fire, veterans and isolated indigenous groups, and anyone else suffering from the disease to offer support and give a voice and a permanent out-reach to those who suffer silently from the serious and sometimes deadly outcomes of depression.
“We want to find a way to reach and help that lonely person. We know that he or she exists in every neighbourhood and every city. Our goal is to reach as many as we can.”
All too familiar with the dark pathways of depression, Landsberg’s efforts have earned him the honourable title as ‘Champion of Mental Health’ by the Canadian Alliance on Mental Illness and Mental Health.
Like any grassroots project, #sicknotweak looks for corporate partners to assist in marketing and the development of community focused initiatives. “You have to ask yourself. Do you want to be on the side that says we want to help those people, or do you want to be on the side that says not my problem.”
When asked about his attitude today about his illness, Landsberg’s words are definitive, “look out depression, I am coming for you.”
You can reach out to Michael by email